Hello there. My name is Fawne – like the baby dear – and I’m thrilled that you’ve come to this space. I am a woman, daughter, wife, mother, friend. Lover of Jesus, seeker of Truth, beloved of the Father. I am not my own but am complete in Him. Bond-servant of the Most High but wonderously free. A woman who is learning to delight in her weakness and see all of life through His lens.
I am married to Ben and it’s my favorite! Our nest if full with five kiddos (ages 1 to 10), another on the way, and three gems that have gone on ahead of us. In our thirteen years of marriage, we’ve moved 14 times and as two introverts, who love a simple and quiet lifestyle, it has been tremendously stretching. Both Ben and I have big dreams which have mostly been crushed but through this we’ve begun to learn the blessings of waiting and surrendering; the journey is more about who you become than what you do.
My heart beats for women. Women who are in bondage, women who are struggling, woman who need courage and encouragement. Every morning for years I have risen early so I have time to study God’s Word and learn what He has to say about living whole. This is my passion and joy. I have written multiple Bible studies and had the tremendous joy of teaching the truth that God puts in my heart. As I offer up this small gift, I have watched God take it and multiple it a hundredfold. He’s freaking awesome like that.
I’m not very good at making small talk because I prefer to get right down to heart issues but for those of you who love to know details here’s a few random facts in no particular order: I love coffee and hate being cold. We homeschool our children which is not a passion for me but something I feel called to do at this point of my life. I’m the oldest of 12 children. Technology and I have a mutual hate relationship but I do love a book that makes me stop and ponder (hello, C. S. Lewis). Being alone is one of my favorite things and I don’t mind getting up in the wee morning hours so that I have time to myself every day. I’m not overly partial to cooking but giving my house a good clean is almost like a high.
What I Mostly Write About:
I love to wrestle out my faith on paper and I’ve found that through it God has a way of wrestling truth into my heart. Shying away from difficult questions is not my style. There is no point in pretending I feel differently than what I really do and I’ve learned that God is fully able to help me see life through His lens – which, I believe, is the only path toward true healing.
I have felt abandoned, unheard, worth only leftovers, and singled out. I have screamed for God to leave me alone, I have spoken words of hatred toward Him, His will, His grace in disguise. I have wrestled out my faith with many tears through many dark nights. Yet in it all I discovered that I must never under-estimate the power of God to redeem the impossible. Time after time I have been witness to what should have been irredeemable and then from the middle of the grossness, the ugliness, the darkness – a beauty that shook me to my core. This is often what I write about and what I deeply desire that you, my reader, will come to recognize through your own pain.
I am cheering you on. I am praying for your faith. I am asking our Father to use me to help you find your courage. I’m glad you stopped by and I hope you’ll come back.